A Real Update

First I want to say sorry for not keeping everyone up to date on what is going on over the past few days. Things have been insane traveling back and forth from Macon to Atlanta. When I was released from the hospital a couple of weeks ago I knew that the rest of this new course was going to be different. I found out quickly how hard. I have spent the last several days very sick, very tired, and very frustrated. My medications have been making me feel crazy and out of control. I don't quite feel like myself anymore. My mind seems just a little behind the rest of what is going on. I call it chemo-brain and hopefully it will pass. On Monday I have surgery. The doctors are putting a resevior in my head. This is so the doctors won't have to keep doing lumbar punctures. I will be in the hospital from the 19th through the next 5-6 days following. My surgery will be on Monday morning and my chemo will start that night. I am going tomorrow to Emory with my family to meet with the Bone Marrow Transplant team, Friday pre-op and then I'll be spending the weekend having Thanksgiving fun with the family. Will share more information after our meeting with the bone marrow transplant specialist.

Nothing to do with cancer.

There are some days that just make you want to write. The weather is set, the circumstance is presented, and then it comes- inspiration. Today was not that day. I mulled about doing this then that and nothing. I have this overpowering desire to write something beautiful, something full of meaning, but I just don't feel like I have anything of importance to say. How frustrating. Maybe I'm doomed to spend my days filling pages with paragraphs of nonsense and blah blahs with bits of poetry and cliches' stuck in-between. If you have any ideas for me to ponder and butcher or maybe to pontificate upon please send them my way. Muse speak to me. Some one please "a-muse" me. Teeheehee.