Today has been a very rough day. I sense something very heavy within me physically and emotionally. I know it's there and nagging at me but I stuff it til the "appropiatte time" mostly at night when all is quiet and everyones retired to their rooms. But now I just checked the mail, got a card from a friend or two, read the words of love and beautiful memories regarding Beez and I loose it. It's a good thing, a very good thing, actually a cherished thing I treasure to read the memories that people who love her remember and share with us. I do love hearing about her escapades, fond memories, the "life and times" so to speak of "my favorite". So I wanted to jot a quick THANK YOU for all who have sent me/us a note with your fond memories of Brianne, Beez, Bri or Briannicles to some (We teased her often regarding her many names, mostly though about how those who didn't know her would call her Brianna. She couldn't stand to be called Brianna! It was worse than nails scratching a chalkboard to her). Anyway, thank you again for your very kind sentiments, memories, prayers and expressions of love. They are TRUELY helping us all.
Sincerely, Brenda
Friday, June 27, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Lil bishun
That's what my girl used to say when she just absolutely had zero gumption, energy or simply very little ambition "lil bishun" to do anything. We often used different words to communicate our thoughts, feelings, etc. God I miss her terribly.
Well I am in the negative on lil bishun scale. Not feeling up to much of anything. Holding on though. Doing the next thing but nothing creative or sharing. So keep on checking the blog, maybe in the next week or two will be able to get some pics together. As I said before Chris is having a very hard time getting through the picture video of Bri, it just hurt so ---- much. We miss her beautiful smile her loving spirit her witty banter and her sweet voice. Gotta go, can't see through the tears to type anymore. Bless You and Thx for the prayers.
Brenda
Well I am in the negative on lil bishun scale. Not feeling up to much of anything. Holding on though. Doing the next thing but nothing creative or sharing. So keep on checking the blog, maybe in the next week or two will be able to get some pics together. As I said before Chris is having a very hard time getting through the picture video of Bri, it just hurt so ---- much. We miss her beautiful smile her loving spirit her witty banter and her sweet voice. Gotta go, can't see through the tears to type anymore. Bless You and Thx for the prayers.
Brenda
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
A Season of Grief
We will post some things in the days to come. Presently we are coping, grieving and "doing the next thing". Christopher is working on a pictorial memorial that is beautiful but difficult to finish as you can imagine. Please check back later. The notes people have sent with memories and what Bri meant to them has been incredibly encouraging and comforting. Thank You and please send more so we can compile them.
On a personal note:
One week has passed. I have not posted as words fail me. One of my very precious treasures is gone from me and I grieve. I have never known such sorrow. At times I am comforted by Gods words and promises. Other times, nothing seems to satisfy the deep longing for my daughter/best friends prescence. Embracing the finality, the reality is excruciating. Anxiety, remorse and sorrow replaces hope. Eventually, the overwhelmingness of it all washes away as the tears stream down. I am left with nothing but God, just as it should be.
On a personal note:
One week has passed. I have not posted as words fail me. One of my very precious treasures is gone from me and I grieve. I have never known such sorrow. At times I am comforted by Gods words and promises. Other times, nothing seems to satisfy the deep longing for my daughter/best friends prescence. Embracing the finality, the reality is excruciating. Anxiety, remorse and sorrow replaces hope. Eventually, the overwhelmingness of it all washes away as the tears stream down. I am left with nothing but God, just as it should be.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
A Grievous Loss & A Better Place
Last night, Wednesday, around 8 PM, Brianne passed away and is now with God. She no longer is in pain or hurting, and our hearts and minds are still reeling. We thank everyone out there for your prayers and support throughout all of this and continue to ask for prayer. Per Brianne's request, we will not be having a memorial or funeral service and she'll be cremated and her ashes scattered in the Smoky Mountains of North Carolina in the Fall and at the first snow. In lieu of flowers, we would ask people to either send gifts to the home address below or support our friend Jon Brown who is running a marathon in honor of Brianne and raising money for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society and the American Cancer Society have been very supportive, helpful, and provide an invaluable service.
Re. the Party - it was a smashing success and a wonderful time of fellowship, food, and fun. We had around 200 people that came, and we wound up running out of name stickers, had cars parked all up and down our street and neighboring streets, and have lots of leftovers. Thanks to all who helped out and especially to Liz who is an amazing coordinator, mover, shaker, and friend.
Within the next few days, we will post some pictures from the Brianne-abration, some info. about the party, and a few of the letters written to Brianne. Thanks again for everything ya'll out there have been to us and to Bri. We love ya'll.
If you want to contact us, you may write us at:
The Tsavatewas
539 Moss Hill Dr.
Macon GA 31204
call or email:
Chris (478-361-3507) & thecigarstoreindian@gmail.com
Mom (229-506-3221) & btsavatewa@yahoo.com
Joshua (478-737-4178) & jtsavatewa2002@yahoo.com
P.S. Please continue to email pictures to Chris at thecigarstoreindian@gmail.com
Sunday, June 1, 2008
The Brianne-abration!
Time: Wednesday, June 4th, AD 2008, 2PM EST-Until (staying late is perfectly fine and encouraged)
Where: Chris & Dallas' house
Who: Any and everyone
What: Party w/ Brianne and her peeps.
Themes: Come in your favorite Bri-esque attire (ie: three t-shirts, a trucker hat, or something Bohemian). Also: a theme will be to mingle and meet strangers sharing your BRI experience, because Brianne never met a stranger.
Our address is:
539 Moss Hill Dr
Macon GA 31204
and here are links to google maps for how to get there:
Directions if coming from the North (Atlanta down I-75):
Directions if coming from the South (S. GA up I-75)
Thanks to everyone who has offered to help, and if you still wish to help, but have not contacted us, please contact Liz Collins about helping out by emailing her at lizacollins84@hotmail.com or downhere4him@yahoo.com or call her @ 478-318-2714. Please continue to email pictures to Chris @ thecigarstoreindian@gmail.com.
Please direct any and all questions about the Brianne-abration you may have to Liz.
Life Celebration Party Plans
Because of Brianne's setbacks and the medical staffs information and we are currently thinking that she may not have much time left. We've moved from her having 3-5 weeks, to possibly having only 1-2 weeks and now only a few quality days. With her weakened immune system and the infections in her (the pneumonia, septicimia, & the fungal infection on her skin), in being realistic, we have to face the possibility of less time than originally thought. Because of that, we are going to move up the life celebration party to Wednesday.
Regarding the party: We've had trouble finding a place to have it, so we are just going to have it at the house. Some of the specifics are in flux right now and we'll have it firmly nailed down by Monday night. We're looking to do a bunch of different stuff and have a lot of Brianne's favorites foods and activities. We would like to get some help in getting people to purchase certain things simply because it's a bit of a logistical nightmare to get together all of the stuff and we're a bit busy right now. If you are willing/able to do something please email Chris at thecigarstoreindian@gmail.com, and include your name & phone number and we'll assign something for you (of course, after conversing with you). Having the party is kind of her last wish, and we really want to have it and have many people come.
Also, please let others know about this new development and the date change. We will be emailing and calling people, and some people don't read the blog and/or we don't have their contact info. Thanks again and we need your prayers. Also, keep the pictures via email coming to Chris at thecigarstoreindian@gmail.com. If you have any old-school, non-digital pictures, bring them to the celebration party and we'll put them up on the walls.
Regarding the party: We've had trouble finding a place to have it, so we are just going to have it at the house. Some of the specifics are in flux right now and we'll have it firmly nailed down by Monday night. We're looking to do a bunch of different stuff and have a lot of Brianne's favorites foods and activities. We would like to get some help in getting people to purchase certain things simply because it's a bit of a logistical nightmare to get together all of the stuff and we're a bit busy right now. If you are willing/able to do something please email Chris at thecigarstoreindian@gmail.com, and include your name & phone number and we'll assign something for you (of course, after conversing with you). Having the party is kind of her last wish, and we really want to have it and have many people come.
Also, please let others know about this new development and the date change. We will be emailing and calling people, and some people don't read the blog and/or we don't have their contact info. Thanks again and we need your prayers. Also, keep the pictures via email coming to Chris at thecigarstoreindian@gmail.com. If you have any old-school, non-digital pictures, bring them to the celebration party and we'll put them up on the walls.
Health Update
Brianne had a setback Saturday, and we were not able to go to North Carolina. Instead, we are going to be staying in the Emory hospital until the middle of next week and will probably return to Macon by Wednesday or Thursday. We are still intending to have the life celebration party on Saturday.
Brianne's health has deteriorated rapidly over the past 36 hours and she is very weak, tired, sore, and ill. She started developing some sores on her skin on Tuesday and Wednesday and over the past 2 days, they've appeared over all of her body. The sores are due to her weakened immune system and come from a blood infection. The Doctor said the sores should continue to multiply and probably won't go away. The sores look kind of like chicken pox, but they don't itch and are just painful. The sores are not contagious and come from a fungus that every person has, that a normal person's immune system takes care of. We just want everyone to be aware of her appearance, so as not to be shocked or scared.
(Moms addition) Bri is looking forward with delight to her party and is trying to hold on. I know everyone is praying and we bear testimony to the power of prayer as it is what is sustaining and giving hope and peace at this overwhelming time. We have the rough sketch of plans for the party and will be posting the details later today. If you have pictures email them to thecigarstoreindian@gmail.com . Thanks again for everything.
Brianne's health has deteriorated rapidly over the past 36 hours and she is very weak, tired, sore, and ill. She started developing some sores on her skin on Tuesday and Wednesday and over the past 2 days, they've appeared over all of her body. The sores are due to her weakened immune system and come from a blood infection. The Doctor said the sores should continue to multiply and probably won't go away. The sores look kind of like chicken pox, but they don't itch and are just painful. The sores are not contagious and come from a fungus that every person has, that a normal person's immune system takes care of. We just want everyone to be aware of her appearance, so as not to be shocked or scared.
(Moms addition) Bri is looking forward with delight to her party and is trying to hold on. I know everyone is praying and we bear testimony to the power of prayer as it is what is sustaining and giving hope and peace at this overwhelming time. We have the rough sketch of plans for the party and will be posting the details later today. If you have pictures email them to thecigarstoreindian@gmail.com . Thanks again for everything.
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